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FOR FREEEEEEEEEE

2008-12-28T02:45:00.005+08:00

hello people!
i just have to post these pictures up, they were my babies!

lol, my second attempt on making a cake!
okay its not really huge like those celebration cakes, but those small sliced up ones!
i'm happy it looks pretty decent! hahahaha!
there are more pictures but i decided to just upload 1 for the sake of convenience! hahah!
(p.s. lousy camera used to take the shot)

btw, i think Clarke Quay looks really cool at night!

Hahah! okay cheers! (;
FOR FREEEEEEEEE hahahaahha!

lames

2008-12-26T00:31:00.002+08:00

Been a while since i blogged!
Been using the computer less past 2 weeks, hardly in fact.
for the readers info, i had been playing around with Origami, Guitar and reading Books.
Been trying sleeping before 12, and waking up at 7am daily.
exceptions for some of the days thou(:
cheers to the Origami Lovers!
some update, i'm out of school temporary due to insufficient credits from semester 1, i'll be retaking my semester 1 next's august! haha!
My pocket money will be in custody, hence it calls for work!
alright gonna search for jobs this coming jan, working for about 6months before the new school semester!
alright! thats all i'm going to say. heh
seeyallaround!

Hidden Cove

2008-12-13T01:02:00.003+08:00

~1.02am

Decisions you make, make you.
i have a chest of decisions, values and beliefs hidden at home.

yawn

~1.05am

Long long post(:

2008-12-11T05:20:00.011+08:00

~5.20am

been sleeping at 5am or 6am these days.
my mom is complaining i'm gonna die soon. lol
its a fact that people who are taller than average have a shorter lifespan.
but i believe that regardless of the length of your lifespan, how you live your life is important.
if i have 50 years to live, i don't mind, just a meaningful and awesome one. haha!
19 years of my life, another 29yrs to go
by 25, by 30, by 35, by 40, by 45, by 50 and not stop fighting for what you believe in.
i wonder if i will have kids. hahah!
hmm.. always wanted a soccer team of kids. make it 2.
that would take like 20+/- years. means i got to be married by before 30. LOL
okayy this is nutty, anway i would prefer 2/3 kids.
probably 2girls, 1 boy, or 2boys 1 girl.
hopefully non in the middle(:

Alright, last week went to Jurong Point, this knitting shop, seriously, knitting looks incredibly interesting
takes about 5/6balls of yarn to create a scarf, each ball is about 20 odd dollars, which means it will cost about 120dollars -.-
So on second thoughts i decided to check the prices online, some were suspicious looking websites or unlawful prices, but after an hour of searching, i found IT and it cost like 30 odd dollars for a pack of 10 yarn balls.
seriously, way way way cheaper, and its a reliable website haha!
So i went to do more research, found videos that teaches the art of knitting(:
So most probably, i'll get those balls from the net and knit them at home.
to create, to build, its in all of us

one could just dissed the idea of knitting when they found out the price of knitting at jp
but, i guess i didn't want to give up on something so quickly, so i went in search of better prices and quality. haha!

Same thing with life,
you can encounter something that just wouldn't budge, you try tackling it once or twice but it just wouldn't budge and you decided that you can find something else to spent your time on, try to forget about it and move on, but sometimes you just have faith.
With faith, you decided you just got to do something about it, and you do, try a few times, might not be working still, but i believe God doesn't let a man with faith in life down, success is at sight and not yet at hand,
inevitably you had it right, conquered it and thank God.
down the road when a similar situation arise, we confront it and do something about it, again.
you just got to make a decision to do something about it, it boils down to you.

Anyway, my dear friends out here, my trip to china and vietnam is cancelled, due to arising financial needs in most of the Airlines.
probably heading to vietnam next march/april in 2009, hopefully the Airlines would be in a season of love(:
China not sure, maybe june?
I hope i could go to the States as well, wondering which lucky bullet would land in my breast.heh.

I wanna go taiwan too!!! i heard Her food is delicous.
I wanna go Bangkok too, hahaha! okay. shopping!!
I wanna go London too and check out my future sch! hahahaha!(:
how big is the world you know?

Ohh! i bought this pair of pants today(:
Okay, the findings of such a pant is credited to ROSLYN GAY! hahahaha
i'm happy with my pants yet on.
happiness is in regard to circumstances, while joy is of the spirit.

I want go searching for jigsaws later, sudden urge! lol
Gonna get new strings for my baby next week!(:
what you need to do is change what is needed to change, life is of reasonings.

TalentIME this weekend, who is gonna take the stage? ^^

~6.09am

I'm fucking tired

2008-11-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

Started on a new book, Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami.
Once again, the words are so crafted beautifully, word by word, like a note played on a piano, definite and strong, provoking thoughts in array, love it!

Played Counter-Strike and Dota with Zac, Yilin and friends on wednesday, pretty fun, but i was pretty pissed off during Dota. lol

If someone isn't interested in talking to you, you should just keep quiet, take hold of whatever pride that is left and go your f*ing way.
alright, i'm pissed of with people, as much as i can be in love with humans, i can be fuming mad at them.
Give me a tiger, be it white or orange, and let me throw it at them.
Paw them for me mann!
RAWRR!!!

If tears could be bought, let me buy enough tears to drown a man standing at 6ft3

I smile too much and sometimes for the wrong people.

dark,dark

2008-11-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

Read to the end of Norwegian Wood.
dark,dark book.
i'm a little lazy to talk about the book, but i'm going to hit it twice.

loads of thoughts
last night, as i was lying in bed, it feels as if a hippotamass(badspelling) was lying on my head.
sleep wasn't able.
basically i slept at 1130pm, woke at 230 then 5, 9 and 12. lol

i still am clueless with what i really want.
i'll slide away sooner or later..

SORRY PEEPS! (: sedation in process. lol

2008-11-21T18:15:00.008+08:00

Sick i was for the past few days, but i'm still gonna blog. heh!
Hope i'll be all fit by saturday(:

Apologetic i am to some really close friends i have,

Sorry Zachary and Stella, i'm not feeling too good to go Asia's Conference, see you on Saturday, CCC!!!!! haha! oh btw, clement chan a.k.a lemon is coming(:

Sorry Tsh, forgive me for the words that were harsh and ignorant for only out of good intentions did i speak.

Anyway i find this portrait(these days) special.
Sometimes i feel sedated in my own world of lies and truth, that really revokes my thoughts around the ugliness of our species.
Flawed and yet distinctively alluring at the same time.
anyway Bk shutup! lol

how to love field?

New Perspective

2008-11-21T00:04:00.004+08:00

Started reading this book, Norwegian Wood by Haruku Murakami.
Not having much hopes when i bought this book, but somehow i got attracted by the japanese writer named this novel, Norwegian Wood (one of the Beatles)

Anyway, much is explored in this novel.
Extracts will be taken and posted over the next few weeks(:

1st extract

Death exists, not as the opposite but as a part of life.

Its a cliché translated into words, but at the time i felt it not as words but as that knot of air inside me, Death exists - in a paperweight, in four red and white balls on a pool table - and we go on living and breathing it into our lungs like fine dust.

Until that time, i had understood death as something entirely separate from and independent of life. The hand of death is bound to take us, i had felt, but until the day it reaches out for us, it leaves us alone. This had seemed to me the simple, logical truth. Life is here, Death is over there. I am here, not over there.

The night Kizuki died, however, i lost the ability to see death (and life) in such simple terms. Death was not the opposite of life. It was already here, within my being, it had always been here, and no struggle would permit me to forget that. When it took the 17-year-old Kizuki that night in May, death took me as well.

I lived through the following spring, at 18, with that knot of air in my chest, but i struggled all the while against becoming serious. Becoming serious was not the same thing as approaching the truth, i sensed, however vaguely. But death was a fact, a serious fact, no matter how you looked at it. Struck inside this suffocating contradiction, i went on endlessly spinning in circles. Those were strange days, now that i look back at them. In the midst of life, everything revolved around death.

2nd extract

"..... The one thing i do have, though is curiosity. I want to see what i can do out there in the big, tough world."

"And you have no use for 'ideals', I suppose?"

"None. Life doesn't require ideals. It requires standards of action."

The novel written in a way that rivets into one's mind.
Still, its just a love story.

Anyway, just got 2 of which that kept me at its page for a couple of minutes.
Really interesting book, not for the strong at heart.
hah! i'm not going to tell you what went on in my head(:
Each his own,

blessings

2008-11-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

Soccer!!
i still love vb and bball. hahah!
Sentosa soon mann! Can go there and own. hahahahah! just kidding.
Zac take note of the above request. lol

SATURDAY!!!
I slept at 5am on sat and woke up at 8am to go play soccer with my secondary sch friends at ngee ann poly kismis field. hahah! when i woke up i was really really tired and grouchy.
Anyway took a cab down to bukit timah, cab fare was like only $4+, took around 5 minutes lol.

Soccer was fun, and once again i cant play the position i like lol, because everyone doesn't wanna be the keeper, ahahahah! ohh well.. i volunteer myself AGAIN!
But i think its fine, as everyone was enjoying themselves.

As i stood there as a keeper, i pretty much have some bits of time to think and i realized that its alright sacrificing my fun for a friend of mine, because i would feel like crap if i see my friend feeling emo, hahahah, but ohh well, i just got to smile and really make the best out of what i have in hand, which is SAVE THE BALLS!!!!

btw, being the keeper is fun in a way, you are the only one who can use hands to touch the ball. lol!

ALRIGHT!
If everyone can live to be a blessing to others, how nice this world can be... heh.
love got to be in the air(:

2 greatest days for a man, the day he was born and the day he finds out why he was born.

Bk rocks! thanks brenda

2008-11-14T17:58:00.004+08:00

Prodigy!

2008-11-14T17:45:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4CR3GoB3YY&feature=related

Prodigy! lol

Beauty is Rare

2008-11-12T03:36:00.003+08:00

Ever counted the number of things you can do?
If you never tried counting before, why not try listing it down now.

Ever counted the number of things you will do for a friend?
If you never tried counting before, thats probably because you haven counted the number of things you can do.
go on, start counting.

If the number of things will do for a friend is more than 60% of the number of things you can do, your friend should count him/herself lucky to have you as a friend.

i suddenly had this funny thought,
In what situation would you wash your friend's feet? hahahahahh
Maybe he is unconcious, or maybe he hurt his back then can't reach his feet.. hahah
okayy. honestly if i had to wash all the feet that enters my house, i gladly do it.

You might think, he/she can wash his/her own feet, why need me to do it?
well, thats because doing something for a friend not out of situation, not out of obligations, but out of love, because you treasure him/her, its beautiful.

No second thoughts that your friend might think you are gay or weird.
It is almost like servanthood. hahah!
But in a way it is out of the abundance of your heart.

beauty is rare
but what that is rare, might not be beautiful.

3 cheers for Beauty
B for Beauty, hahah!

Disorder!?

2008-11-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

I wonder what kind of questions do parents ask their kids other than, "have you eaten?", "have you bathe?", "have you done your homework?", "how is school?", "how is church?", these are some of the questions my parents regularly ask me.

If your parents do not ask such basic questions, you are pitiful.

I considered my parents asking me, "Are you troubled?".
But my reply was, "Nope."

Short and simple to shut them up, then walk away to further discourage them from asking such questions again.

Couple of reasons why kids do not communicate well with their parents,

1. Their parents never have been talking to them, hence the the sudden questions from their parents would be deterred offensively and regarded as being nosy.

2. They never spoke of their feelings before, hence lost of words in response to their parents' questions and concern.

3. They have psychological problems, lotsa facts about such disorders in www.wikipedia.org ha!

i'm just going to stop here. (:
Change is absolute constant
yawn~

Too slack mann!

2008-11-04T01:36:00.002+08:00

Long time since i blogged!
upcoming months to the end of 2008, lots of events are going on, like street soccer in church and cs-ing hah! look forward to it.
I'm in the last 2 weeks of my school and the assessments for the semester will come slapping my face, i failed a project, and can't seem to focus, on my work now, and my lecturer even sat me down, to ask if i'm facing any problems, because he feels that i going downhill in my work, oh crap! he spelt the words R.E.T.A.I.N, and i feel like giving up. lol! i know i shouldn't, but i made a decision that even though, i might retain, i will complete my work, and try not to skip classes. haha!
I dont really know what else to blog because this is the only thing that is bothering me right now. hahahah!
Got to do something, start working!

Rid of 'the old', Chasing of 'the new'

2008-10-07T03:12:00.003+08:00

Am doing my preparation of a presentation later on at 9am.
50% of my grades for the subject: Contemporary studies.

On thursday, lotsa things to be handed up for my Styling class,
will rush will rush, sleep less.

I found out an explanation to my bad sleeping hours.
When i go to sleep, its the end of the day, and i don't like the feeling, where i lose to the fact that the day has ended, its like giving up. lol. hate that feeling.

Okay, the main reason why i decided to add one post to my collection is because i realized 2008 is coming to an end.
So fast, yet it has been the most grueling and dramatic year in my life.
I wish i could leave on a jet plane, and fly to somewhere i wouldn't know the arrival of 2009.
Maybe i will post the list of events that occurred in 2008, that shook my innards.
then maybe add a list: Top 2 worst events, or Top 2 bad decisions, something like that. hahah!
then evaluate myself lol.

Alright. gonna head back to work. 4 more hours before going to school(:
Cheers

(p.s. 08 begone, 09 become)

50th post! (:

2008-09-18T01:35:00.004+08:00

My 50th post! ha sense of accomplishment!
Spend my entire day at home doing my assignments, i'm still doing it btw, got to finish by 6am then take a fast nap before heading to sch at 9am.

I suddenly find it distasteful to sleep
like a complete waste of time.
I don't mind spending an hour or 2 just sitting by my window and read a book, or just fiddle around with something, but i just can't stand wasting my time sleeping.

it is scientifically proven that, people who do not get adequate sleep would probably die very much earlier,
maybe its my struggle in pursuing my death, not that i'm do not have a reason to live, instead my reasons to live will be accomplished, where all that i can be has come to past.

I'm not feeling emo, instead, i'm just voicing out my thoughts.
thoughts that might sedate me.

How many ways can one think of to renew one's existence?
new friends?
another country?
another school?
new contacts?
new focus in life?
changed character/personality?
new faith?
i believe there is so many more. haha!
Maybe some may ask, why do i think of something like that?

I guess it just came to my head before, and i'm renewing the thought.
but no worries, i'm not planning to do any of the above.

So why renew one's existence?
One could say, he/she is running away from the present reality, or maybe just needed new scoop in life?
Maybe when you go to Ben & Jerry's you will order,
"Can i have a single scoop of Chocolate Fudge Brownie?, cone please."
but now, your order has changed,
"Can i have a double scoop of Dublin's mudslide and Rum&Raisin?, cup please."

Hahha! okayy. the ice cream theory is here to EAT you up!! lol
lets say, whole freezer containing the ice creams is the World,
So much that the world can give you, but what is your choice.
In our heads, we would be thinking, if i can have every flavour, that will be great!
But nvm, i will taste it one by one, and see which is best to my liking.
And there goes these gluttons, tasting all till they find find something they like and they keep coming back for more, occasionally switching to other flavours for old times sake.
Lol! this is funny, i'm kinda distracted now. but i thought its true, because i tasted it all.

Alright, i got to get back to my work, i hope i don't have to sleep.

Cheers
nights yall!

Me as a fiction book

2008-09-17T00:01:00.007+08:00

Its been 20 days since i last posted something.
Been really busy with schoolwork, trying to focus.

I just read finish this book called "The Kiterunner".
One phrase from the book that is wheezing around in my head
The worst sin is thief, because when you lie, you rob someone of their rights to the true, when you kill, you rob someone of their rights to live, when you put someone down....

I realise how i live my life is by reasons
I do my assignments and get the very best of it, because i want to glorify God.
I spend lesser money on food, because i want to save more money to give or to get other things.
I sleep late, because i need the silence of the night to do things.
I type this post, because i needed to type some thoughts out and then hope that someone will read it and figure me out.
I do not speak of anything deeper than i think i should, because bear i will not the consequences of my words.
I speak of restrain, because this world reads and tries to understand, but never wanting to understand hence read.

I' feel that i shouldn't post this, because it expresses some of my thoughts, my weaknesses.
So will people try to understand me by reading my words, my actions, my blog?
Or maybe the slight hesitation in my response to the seemingly lower voice i project when i speak or maybe the awfully heavy legs i drag around often to the extra bounce i have in my footsteps at times may tell you a thing or two about me.

your life is a story, a legacy, a legend, whatever...
Dont you feel like you are reading a fiction book about me all the time?
Where people get sucked by the big magnet called "assumption", which each of its ends are labelled "postive" and "negative".

There was once Terry told me this phrase,
To live is to think
To think is to live

I kinda like it, because i'm been thinking all my life, maybe when i accepted Christ, i wasn't thinking, but i knew that i needed Him, wanted Him, thats all, simple.
But for now, i think i will just carry on pursuing the A's in my assessments.
Good Night all (:

All i need is YOU!!!

2008-08-28T17:47:00.002+08:00

I must have a dog next time! haha.
an average dog sleeps around 10-14 hours a day!
Lucky thing!

School is tough,
Just the start
Yet, work load is at its minimum according to lvl 2 students.
But, i'm so looking forward to next semester, where we gonna sew!!! hahah
I think sewing is cool.

Ivan going ns!
Elgin going ns
The poh brothers are going to ns!

my ns is like 2 years from now!
happy yet a little unwilling, cuz 2 years later, church would be close to like 2/3000, and its like gonna be so so so exciting every week.
i'm looking forward for this weekend,
Saturday service with Pastor Lia,
Sunday with Pastor Tan!

Alright!
Life is good!
I sleep 3/4hours a day, Praise God. lol!
But my school work is for once in my life, on track.
i go to lesson feeling chilled, everything is prepared, things are done.
i just get comments from my lecturers, and i go back, improve on it.
i feel now its just time to set things right in school, set targets in school, set dreams, and
sooner or later, by God, through God, when the time is right, things will just fall into place!
just got to be constantly in tune!
Past few days, haven really done Qt, tonight, i gonna blast in the spirit!
I need You!!!
all i need is You Lord!
alright, gonna go for my lessons already, had lessons from 12 to 6pm, now 1 hour break then lessons to 9. lol!

ALL I NEED IS YOU!!!

Birthdays (:

2008-08-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

past week and the current week been crazily packed!
with school work! okay, lasalle lvl 1 has tons of hw! Elyn watch out next yr haha!

PstHow's birthday celebrations were held on sunday!
Got to tell you how amazing it was!
THE SKIT, THE MARCHING, THE VIDEOS, THE DANCE, THE EFFECTS, THE BIG CAKE!!!
its just so AHHHH MIND-BLOWING! hahah!
hongkai was very funny in the skit lol
Pst is 38 this yr, my dad is 48, they both celebrated their birthdays on sunday!
but the magnitude is way way way different!
10 years age gap, but sadly, my dad achieved lesser than PstHow, oh no how! hahah!
Okay, my dad just need Christ!
Simple solution(:

Janice had her birthday on saturday as well!
Happy Birthday Janice!

everyone lets put on the mind of Christ! (:
Alright! going back to complete my project!
i love everyone that reads my blog lol!
(p.s. Stella please dont read my blog lol)

#Art inDirecting

2008-08-14T19:46:00.002+08:00

INschool now!
Having Art Direction Lessons, super boring!
but! i shouldn't say that haha.

Concerning the use of adobe products lol!
Basically, photoshop for the first few weeks, and more programs next time, stil not sure.
But i'm sure things will work out! (:

i feel super powered to do work!
Must be God, the best i can be, all i can be, in God, through God. (:

Alright going back to lesson mode haha!
(:

Miss church mann!
Cant wait for Weekend (:

#I'M SAVED!!!

2008-08-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

Okay people!

i am finally Saved!
BARELY! haha!

now charging my Macbook.
not mbp, but i think will do! needa get programs from Nicholas. hah!

lotsa homework to do.
(: see you guys around again?

Lv,
Bk (:

#If only earlier on....

2008-08-11T10:15:00.003+08:00

Finally i understand what happened, only after months.
would it be different, if i knew about it like months before?

i'm in tuned!
luckily, if not the noises in my head would be deafening.
i have journals at home to pen my thoughts, bring about it everywhere i go, so whenever i think of something, i can write it down. Helps me to keep my thoughts on leash. hah!!

Eeclesiastes 3
A time for everything, a base.
Now is the time... for us to shinee!!! hah!
Now is the time... for Bk to work hard.

Gonna get my materials for classes today and spend the day clearing my assignments! hahah!

#My beloved Frequency!

2008-08-10T01:17:00.004+08:00

Saturday Service was Great!
Turn on your radios, and stop tuning in to 98.7fm or 90.5fm!
Get your frequency to God fm!
Its on air.

Okay, this is interesting! Pastor How, said that there are practical Atheist, one that belives in the existence of a God but does not live he/her life with consciousness of God.
Sadly, there are nominal christians that are Practical Atheists.

Dont fall into P.A. its bad for health! lol

Just started school this week, and just wanna say, I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS TO DO! (:
But the group of classmates i hang out with are pretty nice, no smoking, no vulgarities, no drugs lol. yeah basically, just nice people.
But, the other bunch of people in class are exactly the opposite. lol!
So they better watch out, i'm gonna get them.
Ohhh, yeah the group i hang out with are namely, Tania (the slang-er), Jeanette (ijc-senior), Shalom (eh, sms boy?) and Kei (vietnamese girl).

School is good, Church is Great.
But when i'm in tuned, school is not yet Good.
Got to work harder! (:

Perserverance, Ps40.

#Saydo-gen!

2008-08-05T22:58:00.006+08:00

Got to give thanks to my God, for His Eternal Faithfulness!

If God gives you a vision, it doesn't mean it will come to past.
But how you live your life presently, affects your vision.

It kinda struck me that if I get a Vision from God, maybe about my future family, eg. A family that is can serve God powerfully, maybe as pastors or maybe as missionaries that will impact societies and generations.

But if i were to just Trust God, just solely trusting God will bring my vision to past and living my life like how everyone else does, praying but only when at dire situations, seeking God but only when i feel emo, crying in his presence but only in church when the presence of God is strong, reading the bible but only when i feel like it...

But when God tugs at my heart and challenges me to do something, something that God leaves it to me to decide, i kinda put down that "voice" or try to reason things out with God, like ohh... God not now please, i'm so tired from school or, i'll do it when the time is right so God i pray that you just bless me so that my current situation in the world would be better. God if i see that my situation is better and more steady, i'll right away do what you ask me.. So now i just pray, really got to help me, i'm so lost.

yeahh right.. i'm so lost in my own world, lol!

i feel that many times, its easy to say i trust God, i pray to God, i worship God, i praise God, i give all glory to God, i give all honor to God, i give......
but its a whole new level to saydo, i walk in Your ways, Your laws, Your commands.

HA! its just a different ball-game, its like a touch rugby compared to american football. lol

But God!
Don't Worry, i'm just somewhere behind You, far far far behind lol, but look out for me, here i come!!!

(P.s. I love you God!)

#Alluring scent of knowledge

2008-07-31T03:14:00.002+08:00

Went to kinokuniya today, spent like 4 hours in there? lol
Seriously, i was in there just wanted to take a look at some web page design books, maybe can learn how to do web-page designing!

But oh my Gosh! i jumped to the this section called the Food section and i started browsing the books over there, and seriously, i dunno if i'm hungry or just felt like looking at pictures of cakes, but i just started flipping open every book there was on that 9 rows of shelves.
before i could go on to the 10th shelf, i looked at the time and oh crap. lol! i spent 4 hours there already!
And then i just tell myself okokayyy!! just a little more and i will go! so i decided on buying this baking book that is rather illustrious(lotsa pictures) lol.

Then as i was heading to the counter, something caught my eye, it was a guide book for travelling around Israel!
so off i go again, reading this thick book, about Israel history, cultures and blah blah blah!
and i decided to buy this book too! lol
Because i wish to go Jerusalem one day, so by buying this book, i bring forth the 4th Dimension! hahah! so i will not be like unprepared, prepare myself mann! lol!
i'm reading it after i type this post, Exciting mann!

yupp, and thats my Bookstore Adventure today! hahah!

Ohh. i also saw this amazingly thick book on the history of Israel, costing only $80 bucks if i remembered correctly. yeah, but i decided not to! lol! wait till next month, get my dad to buy it for me lol!

Okay! After going to the bookstore, i must say, i'm super motivated to enrich and empower my brain with knowledge!

i saw some books for kids and i remembered the new kid on the block, lol!
He is just about 6 months old.
But i'm gonna love this neighbour of mine! hahah! in the meanwhile, try to get them to church as well, the children, the parents and also the grandparents, then it would be 3 generations in a church! I think this idea was God made, so i'm gonna carry it out! lol!

Mission-so-possible! (:

#Festival of Praise

2008-07-30T15:07:00.002+08:00

Alright!! this Post is for the promotion of FOP!
This FRIDAY, Pastor How will be the heading the whole running of events at Festival of Praise, Gonna be Amazing mann! Heart of God ushers running around, see Sean (ahneh) running around as well. lol!

best of all, Parachute Band is there and OH holy smokes!!! Pst Mark Conner will be there too!!! actually i kinda like Pastor Phil Pringle more lol!
Okay! Everyone who is readin my post, DO DO DO go for FESTIVAL OF PRAISE, for any information or enquires, do go to www.google.com and type in festival of praise, and you will get all the info you need! (:

#For God is in Control

2008-07-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

Okay, Realised it been close to 2 weeks since i last posted.
Been real lazy to blog, but i am kinda free right now so decided to blog!

Having 3 UCLERS in my mouth!!!
1 on the bottom lip towards the left,
1 at the side of my left cheek,
1 at the end of my jaw, just in between the ends of my teeth!!!

the last ucler keep getting into the way when i eat, hence i keep getting "bloody" food.
hurts like crap please! God rid me of such curses lol!

I think Listerine will do the job too (:
but i remembered that a friend of mine said Listerine hurts thats why it isn't good to use it.
lol! it hurts cuz its zapping away the "baddies" on your ucler, so it can heal faster! hahah!!

I got to blog something about last week's Service with pastor Troy Marshall.

Something Pastor Troy, said that blew me!
Principled-centered Life.
This is an area i felt God telling me to work on!

I find it fun to say this,
If God can speak to me, God can speak to you!

Also regarding the previous post,
i got to say this too.
achieving 100% Bk, is through the Mind of Christ.

I was talking to HH, about things about a week ago.
and i just came to share with him that i used to do things my way, thinking that all things are possible as long as i work hard for it, and always thinking that i have the abilities to do things my way, so God don't really needs to have a hand in this.
Thank God, He revealed that, through Him, He exalts, prospers, success comes, but without Him, bleakness is all i see, as i struggle.
Also that God puts pressures on relationships, friendships, and issues in life that He feels is not good for you now.
God kinda show me how things should be now, and i'm Happy. haha!
okay, when i told HH this, he said this,
The LORD lifts up the humble;He casts the wicked down to the ground.
i found it in Psalms 147:6

Praise God!
i'm Happy with Life now, Everything is in Order.
I just need Discipline!!! HAHAH!!

(p.s. Can't wait for school to start next week)
HAHA!! (:

POTM rocks! lol

#100% Bk

2008-07-16T00:43:00.002+08:00

Stayed over at Zachary's place last night!
AND YES!!
Finally, I got my guitar!!!
a Takamine(:
Practising at Zach's place, while i observe Elgin and Zachary battle out on the grounds of Gunbound.

Then went out with Roslyn, Guowei, KoonYew for Dinner. ha!
Guowei left after dinner while Ros, Koon and I continued walking around.

We walked around, FarEast, then headed to Takashimaya, then to Starbucks near Heerens, got a Dark Mocha Crap, Good tasty drink.

Then headed Home, while going back, i beginning to think of what it takes to be childish in front of friends.
Ros, said that it takes Ease and comfortability with the people you are with, will you then be childish..
I kinda agree with what she said.
I came to realise the comfort level i'm with roslyn and koon, is at its peak.
Its "me" that they are hanging out with, 100% BK. haha!

I began thinking, if i could be 100% BK all the time, its really quite crazy haha!
Then i wonder if i could choose to feel comfortable, instead of naturally feeling comfortable with them.
then i recalled that Nicholas, once said that if you hang out with a friend often, comfortability comes naturally.
So i'm gonna hang out with my church mates more mann! haha!

Its weird to love someone, and not be comfortable and yourself when you are with them.
Names cant help surfacing when i think of this.

Still i Praise God for these names haha!

#Learn!

2008-07-13T02:52:00.002+08:00

What a day i had in church!
Genesis of a Genius sermon, a new song during worship!

I love Praying! haah, i kinda like speaking in tongues.
Praise God for that. haha!

Played soccer at 10.30pm in church, thou i was the goal keeper, i'll do my best, be like Casillas. lol. i'll try la.

And when i spent 2 hours on my blog's HTML, doing the editing for my NEW blogskin!
YAYNESS!
Serious, it was sooooo irritating when i accidently deleted something and i had to trial and error all the codes to get back the same format. zzz.
But i was learning stuff! So now my brain is tired after searching through all these codes and numbers and stuff.

Of the flesh my emotions are, so God you just got to help me with it. hahah!

I miss the horrr... ):
I miss School!
I miss Xiao Yang! HAHAH

I'm excited to see my brother come to Church tml!
Yayness!

Praise God!
i'm gonna turn in.

#Whats your next step?

2008-07-12T13:26:00.003+08:00

Yesterday as i was on the way home!
i was reading the book of Daniel in the Old Testament.

i came across 9:20-23
20 Now while I was speaking, praying, and confessing my sin and the sin of my people Israel, and presenting my supplication before the Lord my God for the holy Mountain of my God
21 yes, while I was speaking in prayer, the man Gabriel, whom i had seen in the vision at the beginning, being caused to fly swiftly, reached me about the time of the evening offering.
22 And he informed me, and talked with me, and said, "O Daniel, I have now come forth to give you skill to understand.
23 At the beginning of your supplications the command went out, and i have come to tell you, for you are greatly beloved; therefore consider the matter and understand the vision.

Prayer, Confession, Supplication before God.
Understanding comes into you, and the very second you humble yourself before God, He takes action right away.
How great is our God!

bit by bit as i pray and confess and come humbly into His throne,
bit by bit i understand of the things of God and His ways.

and it hit me, as i needed wisdom and understanding to make the right decisions.
He right away showed me something that was to be my next step.

To have a strong personal spiritual life!

hahah! alright Got to rush now! Going church for Saturday AE Service (:

#Unintended steps

2008-07-12T12:59:00.004+08:00

Was talking Zachary yesterday over Raffles City's Food Junction's Beef Noodles around 9pm+, which was pretty late for having dinner, But all i can say, the "zup" of the Beef Noodles pawns all food. lol!

Yeah, as i was talking eating smsing, i sudden thought came to me.
Which is how many significant bad decisions have you made recently?
and a couple of things ran across my mind.

Then Zachary, said that sin we commit is bad decisions made.
and Yess, i totally agree to that.
But i thought and came to a conclusion,
which is
Not every bad decision made is sin, but because we lack wisdom to understand the situation or just the whole thing.
So if i ask yourself, how many bad decisions have i made this past 2/3 weeks?
Can't really count, but i know there are couple of bad decisions which i made that constantly bug me.

It is said that God shows us our next step with light just only enough for just the next step, i suppose many of us make bad decisions, and end up taking an alternative step that was not intended to be and leading us away from our intended step.
I'm saddened by the fact that i know of people who took that alternative step away from what was intended for them. I don't say people who took that wrong step is bad, evil or whatsoever, but its just that they made wrong decisions, and thank God. Yes, somehow or another they might/will step back right on track, for God is faithful.

I choose to let every decision i make be God-made

Lets make right decisions, right choices, for in God we trust. heh!

#Starbuck-ing

2008-07-11T20:21:00.004+08:00

Currently at Starbucks MSQ, Joined Nicholas and c2's meeting.
Was listening to "Built to last" from Nicholas.
Laying Foundations!

I'm waiting for Zachary to reach MSQ too! haha!
then will be heading home, so many things to prepare for weekend.
Excited mann!

Its Academic Excellence Weekend (:
Gonna be amazing! got some amazing Worship songs to be played! (:
looking forward to my weekends, just a couple of hours later.

Leonard!
My new Cgl, got to blog on him as well.
i'm suprised at the start, but i'm so sure, he will lead me even further.

my prayer has always been the same.
Change my heart so Right.

Praise God (:

#Excuse me! you must be really Happy!

2008-07-11T00:18:00.005+08:00

Seriously i need my guitar soon!
i can't wait to have blisters on my finger-tips.
laugh all you want at my desire for blisters, but it means something to me.

AND yess!!
I got that Green Bag from Wisma already! (:

So many ppl's birthdays are coming!
My dad and mom's one hahah!
janice's too
many others cant really recall now.

Okayy, i have not been working for 2 weeks already. haha! my my!
its my boss's fault, posting so slow.
But i thank God for it. hah!
So many things happened Butt....
i thank God for Aaron ahahh! (:
i'll keep my word.
My promise to God and him. hahah!

Praise God,
i'm laughing a lot these days, elgin knows that! ahahh!

#No one does it like Zachary

2008-07-10T22:36:00.003+08:00

Spending the past few days with my c2 and c4.
It was great!
it was just fun to hang out with them, poking fun of each other, singing songs as we walk, talking nonsense, All was fun, but i needed to work! hahah
I need to do more things!!!

I got to say this!

Sometimes i just don't feel like talking, but there would always be this friend of mine, Zachary, who will come along side and give me a pat on my shoulder and say, Why? what are you thinking? and with a smile on his face, its comforting.

I dont expect everyone to come up to me and ask what i'm thinking, because no one does it like Zachary. heh

Been thinking of how i spend the past 3 months at home and at work, such unproductivity, i feel remorseful.
Nevertheless, i'm gonna keep my word, and i'm not falling back into my pit.
Yayness!!! Praise God. haha!

i wonder how many ppl use the word Yayness! haha!
or Aye.
or *sniff sniff* hahah!
okay i'm being funny ard here.

YAYNESS!!!

Just for You (:

2008-07-07T04:35:00.002+08:00

Okay, i suddenly felt that i should type this for all my friends that have been reading my blog, especially if you are feeling tired and are unhappy with your current situation or circumstances, it is just a trial, be strong and of good courage, for our God is faithful.

I have lost,
but more had i gained.
What i have lost is of this World,
but what i gained is for eternity.

God speaks to people like you and I.

love you all (:

#Genesis-ed

2008-07-07T04:12:00.003+08:00

Staying up in Zachary's house, he felt asleep while i was talking to him about Mini-s. (:
funny guy, Snoring right next to me now.

Weekend has been amazing!
Suddenly i feel even more sensitive to the Spirit, on Saturday, went for prayer meeting and then service. All i can remember now, is me, kneeing in His courts, Asking Him for forgiveness, asking Him for the right heart.

My prayers went this way, on 1 side, i'm praying for the right heart, but on the other side i was giving God thanks, and both were the loudest thoughts in my head as i prayed, together it felt like a different me.

I realise, it was my very spirit giving Him thanks for the things he had done despite me feeling down, and that my entire being was crying out for the right heart, and that day my prayers seemed like my genesis.

So many things that was zooming across my mind, but when the weekends come, i finally realise the expecting yet not expected fall, i cant explain in details, but i could just say, it felt like a genesis in my spirit.
i'm sure its like how Pst How, preached about our dreams having a rise and fall, a death and resurrection, just like that (:

Finally, He taken that stronghold finally, no manifestation of the spirit or anything, but simply, i give up, and thats what that kept me from giving my all.

All i want to say, praise God for all He done and is going to do.
All i wanna do now is to please God in all that i do (:

I'm EXCITED! hahah. cuz to please God, things are gonna be interesting(:
Thank God!

#Loyalty + Love

2008-07-04T20:13:00.003+08:00

I finally realise the meaning of Loyalty,
even though, i do understand that loyalty means being faithful, being true.
To me there are 3 kinds of loyalty

1 being, loyal to your family- My parents, regardless of what is going on in their lives, i will love them, care of them, listen to them and be their emotional support. I pray for my Mom, i am her support, the one she can share her burdens and heart to, i love her so much that when i see her suffering from nightmares, lack of emotional dependency, i draw to her like how Jesus would, and i listen to her cries. I'm loyal to her, and my loyalty for my family, goes beyond one that is just because i am her son, but because i can't disregard my feelings to love someone who love me so much. Its 2 way, because she love me, i love her. i love my mummy.

2 being loyal to your friends- My friends, been a great support to me in life, but there were times when i was defensive towards their love and concern for me, and now looking back, putting myself in their shoes, i realise how hurt they might be, but they still were my friends, loyal, loving, caring for me. Just as i type about this, i want to apologise to Stella Chan, my loving sister, for her faith in me, despite my attitude, she continued being a motivation, through little words, like remember our competition? haha.

3 being loyal to God- nth much needed to explain about this except... He is Love.
I once placed my life into my own hands, trying to find my destiny, to be special, to be amazing, to solve problems, to be a support to others, to love others, but all failed.
Now I placed my life into God's hands, i have faith, He will illuminate my next step, in Him i'm special beyond words, in doing His works i'm constantly amazed, in Him my problems are solved, and in His love, He is my support and i'm became a strong pillar standing firm in the house of God.

One can be loyal but not love, but no one can love without being loyal.

Love you guys(:

#A dash

2008-06-21T01:00:00.002+08:00

Gotta run, got a Plane to catch.
(: its now or never.
i don't want to be left behind hahaha
Okay. running now, see you guys soon. (:

#Endures all

2008-06-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

Love Endures All (:

i came face to face with the person of Disbelief.
Now i know, disbelieving stops all Miracles and Power of God to move in our lives.
Its paradoxical to say, i have Faith in God, but coming to realise that there is disbelief and doubts deep in your heart.

A man digs for treasure
with a spade
but never was his dig deep enough

30days29nights

2008-06-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

30days29nights
sounds like some game or book. haha
to all that is curious, its a dream that i experienced.

amazing!
i will never take bus 51 alone, ever again.
2 is better than 1.

later the ah nehs at geylang pounce on me
blind may the people be, but the sign will be there
for us for them.

#three3three

2008-06-07T14:11:00.004+08:00

Yes, my blog is still alive, just that i'm lazy to update. lol

i am Currently in Genghis's house using his comp, waiting for him to finish his bath and we will be heading down to church (: slow poke sia. he is a pig lol. Genghis is Barren! hahaha! he will get what i mean! stock up please!

Started work about 2 weeks ago.
super busy, i almost felt i backslided or something haha.
but there was pretty nth much going on in my life.
but still i somehow found a friend that is in need, and i'm gonna be Superman's servant, send my friend to my Superman's house and let my Superman be his Superman too. (: hahah
okay. talking about superman, i got a superman shirt lol.

One thing, i been thinking of how to grow myself for the past 1 week and i found my answer which is going back to my basics and keeping my roots ever strong, i feel rooted, but not rooted strongly in His word, so 3 Cheers and 3 Cheers for Bk to persevere (:
This sentence is for Zac, since he seemed concerned if i'm alright.

Next week i'll be out of town for a couple of days, with my family to Gentings. haha, i love roller coasters (:

see you on sunday, support and encouragement you will get from me. haha!!
This is for my best friend, janice, since she is nagging at me to update.

this entry i dedicate, to 3 friends of mine, Genghis, Zac and Janice. haha! I love you guys (:
(p.s. Janice is needs to be more feminine first lol *hint)

#Nissi

2008-05-19T23:49:00.005+08:00

Today Sentosa was Fun mann!
If your parents can't make you black, the sun would!
Sweat on that island about 30 years ago was from the workers constructing the facilities,
but now, sweat on Sentosa is from the volleyballers and the sun tanners.
lets go saturate Sentosa's beach with sweat again. (:

If anyone found interest in me, that is so because of that Man who change and brought me to where i am now, and you will find more interest in Him.
Red Rain Rock Concert this Weekend is DAA BOOMB!!
He is coming, and you get to meet him. Do contact Bk for more information! (:

#Love Loving

2008-05-15T00:37:00.003+08:00

Today was an awesome day, took the first train.
I love loving.
Survival kits to survive the day! Take a Bk survival kit, and you will live longer lol!

Went Home and went to take some sleep but was woken up by my mom to send her some documents which she left behind, and i being the filial son i am had to go and send to her. haha! but i wasn't in a good mood cuz i was sleeping! lol!

Amazingly i had a good phone call amidst the numerous phone call i received over the day! haha!

Went bowling with my leaders haha!
my thumb hurts now, i guess wrong technique, must go youtube find tutorials for bowling HAHA!
okay. i'm back in my room after a long day, back to the battlegrounds.
talking to lotsa ppl now, all different backgrounds. haha!

2008-05-13T17:30:00.003+08:00

Red Rain is coming!
Anyone that is cool should go for such a concert! (:
its on the 24 and 25th of May 2008, less than 2 weeks away, so go out there and INVITEEE!!!!!

alright! just 2 hours before i'm going for a LASERQUEST outing with my Cg mates, i dont think i will be playing, but i'm there to support them.
you cant get friends like this anywhere, except a church that is great.

i can't say much! but Mother's Day was Great (:
my family relationship is doing Good now, no bickerings or naggings.
Mom is happy with me, dad so-so haha! he just a quiet man!
brother rather okay with me, got ask me out go watch rugby game with him lol! (i'm suprised)
So things are pretty Good.

Friendships are progressing (:
With Zachary (:
loving that brother of mine!
With Janice (:
been talking to her quite a bit, came to know many chapters of her life.
Great buddy!

i guess those 2 are the friends that i been talking to most. hah!

God is Good
Tabernacle Prayer my dear friends!!
It will change your Prayer life instantly!
Do Pray for the people in China and Myanmar, still cant contact my friend Kyaw from myanmar, i pray he is doing well, trying to contact Xiao yang and Song Xue from China, Just pray that God will protect them.
Expect and God will moveeeee (:

Alright thats all!
Hoolleeedays rocks! haha!
Just!

#His fight not mine

2008-05-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

Mother's Day is Coming
Kinda excited over this weekend service, what a sudden feeling, brings back memories.
I guess sometimes weekend services becomes such a passive event, during the week, i ev, by wednesday i try to pop service into the people i trying to invite, by thursday i try my best to excite them, if possible friday have an outing with them and confirm and then the weekend comes.
I guess lotsa things are going through my mind
but this fights isn't mine
to fall is definite, to stand is choice
Weekends my love

#targeting target

2008-05-04T01:34:00.004+08:00

Pledge Day today! (:

Which stage is my dream at currently i thought to myself.
For one great fall, before i soar.
i guess it is nearing my death

If one dream could be so big, how big should ones faith be?
If one dream could be so amazing, what more is the dreams of a thousand?

if you smile and say, my dream is Big, but my God is bigger
you would know that your dreams will come to pass.

Find your rest and you will find your next test.

Okay something funny!
i am currently reading a book called Mars and Venus in Love.
If you read about it, or you know about it, you might be wondering why am i reading this book.
oh well. i thought its best to gain more knowledge. hahah,
lotsa interesting facts and insights,
i'm trying to understand what my parents went and are going through (:
you never know when it might even help you heh ^^

Eyes and the brain work to deceive.

#risky risk..

2008-05-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

AI CONFERENCE today mann!
if you been there, give yourself a pat on your shoulder and say i am amazed.

left early to help my parents out with the renovation at home, and holly molly or molly holly, my room was given a fresh coat of paint with new furniture.
Okay this is how it went,
I chose the color of my walls to be alternating Red and Black ^^
But when i came home, i realise black was black alright, but Red wasn't red, it was red's cousin, Hot Pink.
Shocked i am. but nvm, it feels like what avril lavigne would paint for her walls as well. lol!
btw i used to be a fan of her. but ohh well.. thats the past.
yupp (:
New upsized bed from single to Queen
New Table, from a kiddy workstation to a glass table
New curtains, from weird blue to Satin purple
New Lamp, haven decided which one yet, but i'm already been funded by my awesome mom (:
thanks mom.

Then went to IMM for dinner at 9pm
If you seen a santa walking back from IMM around 10.30, that would be me.
i carried a huge bag containing 2 pillows and 4 covers.
I really felt like Santa in tropical Singapore

Today was Awesome (:

If one great fall before i soar, i count this as one great bounce as i soar.
if you dont get it, dont bother asking.

Don't ever give up on yourself, for God loves you and I love you too! (:

#what a joke

2008-04-30T16:07:00.002+08:00

First day of my holidays and i'm stuck at home
why?
because i need to tidy my room and move the furniture to the centre of my room.
why centre of my room?
because tomorrow my room will be painted a new coat of color.
Great just what i needed on a May Day, stucked at home to watch the uncles do a good job painting.

My long awaited holidays is here, but in my whole being, i lack the excitement for the holidays i wonder why.

i lost and i gained,
but what i gained doesn't erase the fact i lost something.
cuz it is better to lose nothing than to gain and lose something.

What are my Passions in Life?

#free-fall or fall-free

2008-04-30T01:35:00.003+08:00

Finally my assessments are over and God i pray that let your hands be my mighty shield at such times of adversity, i'm talking like i'm gonna fail. lol. anway God is good.

Sometimes i wonder if the blog is there to for others to be deceived or like a honest diary of us being a being.

a bird would say, i soar great heights but i dont see myself getting any higher.
a man would say, i sow many seeds but i dont see the fruits.
a child would say, i see many things but what are they.

One great fall before i soar.

is this the fall? or is this just autumn.

#Are there...

2008-04-28T12:39:00.002+08:00

Looking back at my past entries and i could just say, words from a excited child.

#Is there...

2008-04-28T12:14:00.003+08:00

Somehow i realise that i'm not really much of a extrovert, or given the title of "he talks a lot".
I prefer if i'm called a introvert, cuz honestly, i dont talk alot in school nor do i talk a lot at home, but i'm fished in to talk when i'm with my dear friends. it sounds like words of an angry man, but rest assured its not.
People read, people don't, people understand, people don't, people know, people don't.
thats the way things go.

Less than 24hours to my assessments, not going to lose hope as i still got a ton of things to do, the workload thats on me, the stress, the anxiety of failing, more work less prayer, or more prayer less work be of good?
if one's prayers and works could be measured by time, i choose more work less prayers.
if one's prayers and works could be measured by faith, i choose more work, less prayers.
if one's prayers and works could be measured by your heart, i choose more prayers, less work.

Light shines upon a man, whose path is hidden

If God is there, there is light, if light is, where is my sight?
You got to lead me.

Lotsa thoughts now, would my sight be solely on God and his ways, or would my sight be that of the world, where hard work pays and faith in what i had done with my own strength.
You got to lead me.

Okay, thats it, for He has worked a miracle in me, i will fight for my miracle with Him.

#tenancity for one

2008-04-24T21:59:00.005+08:00

5 days away from my assessements, to be laid-back now is like shooting myself in my head.
to work for the future is at hand
to idle for your ____________

none who put his hands on the plough and look back is ever fit for the kingdom of God
Work Work, Alright!
Okie dookie.
Yes me Lord.

#You are with me

2008-04-17T17:47:00.002+08:00

Just came back from school and i came to realise that the real fights and battles are fought in my very own personal space i have, the comfy chair and that bed.

One great fall, before i soar.

Its quite silly as i came to realise about people is that, their expectations are high yet theres no actuation in their lives.

actuation - to move, to action, start a process, basically to do something.

what is this generation living for?
i am saddened by the fact that they trudge towards something that ends up being nothing.
We are on earth.

Haha! i think i should end off with laughter and excitement for i know that if i labour for the kingdom of Heaven and not the earth, i gonna reap what i sown, plentifully.
yayness
haha!

#for He is mighty

2008-04-16T20:13:00.003+08:00

Busy these days! Burning calories through the night to just finish a bit of my homework.

i feel that i'm not doing much! ): maybe i'm just thinking too much. oh well.

Light shines upon a man, whose path is hidden.

Makes me think, makes me wonder.
For the path i'm walking this moment is like walking on water.
i need more Faith, New faith is what i need.

Gonna Fast and pray tml!
YAYness! (:

Oh for people who aint christian, its simple to be one.
Love God
Love Life
Love Others

Thats all folks! (:

#Spirit of Fight

2008-04-05T23:57:00.003+08:00

Hello (:
Past 2 weeks, amazing thats all i can say!

This verse has been in my heart and surfacing very now and then - Luke [9:62]
"No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God."

Recalling back our church vision
- "Raise up a generation of People who are willing to give God the best years of their lives and He will use this generation to impact all levels of society and all walks of life!"

What powerful and amazing sentences.

i really wanted to blog about last week's sermon which Pastor How preached about David and Goliath.

David ran at goliath, and it struck me there and then that, when David made a decision to confront goliath, he did not look back, he ran, having set his decision and putting his hand to the plow, he RAN at goliath, not looking back, well if it was me, i would be terrfied for goliath was 10ft tall, muscular mean fighter machine and me just a boy of 4-5ft tall, but DAVID RAN!!!

He was a Man after God's Heart, for he Ran without looking back, he ran with all the Faith in him, and God sees his faith. For it was faith and a Spirit of Fight to fight for what is impossible to man but is possible for God, and my God is glorified!

i felt God speaking to me, "Boon keat, is your faith bigger than your dreams? is your faith stronger than the rock that blocks your dreams?"

Honestly, my faith then was brittle, so easily broken with just a nudge from the enemy and it crumbles onto cold hard ground.
I cried out to God, help me oh God, for i'm ashamed, unhappy, unsatisfied with my puny weak faith, God guard my heart against everything, help me, please!!!, i cried out to God.
But i felt God say, No one having put his hand unto the plow and look back is fit for the kingdom of God, and i recall the verse, Luke [9:62].

and i knew in my spirit that God is trying to tell me, dont look back! dont look back Boon Keat! God did not protect the sower by gving him suntan lotion and definitely God did not give him superhuman strength to plow the land fast, so WORK!!!
The spirit of the sower!
Guarding my heart with the similar spirit God placed in me, and this Spirit of Fight is gonna bring me far. FIGHT!!
What a revelation!!!

Fight the torrents of being a student!

for Jesus begun his fight since he was a kid, and you shall fight with that spirit inside of you with ever-increasing faith, and guard your heart with ever increasing diligence, for that Stone that blocks the tomb to Lazarus can only be removed when you decide to stop being lazy,wake up early! and not be late, stop procastinating and start doing your work!

For my faith increases as i pray and draw near to God, for my heart is guarded with the word of God but for the removal of that Stone, i make a decision and i DO SOMETHING!
for i put my hand unto the plow, and i do something!

I start planning to do my Homework!
i start Planning my finances!
i start planning my outings, meetings and whatever that might come my way.
I START PLANNING!!!

Is my Faith bigger than my Dreams?
i say, "Not yet, but God! i will press on as i'm never gonna be satisfied, until my God is satisfied and pleased."

Job!
Man with such spirit of Fight!
Man with the Fear of God!

Amazing Man of God.
For he fought and ran and prayed and surrendered.
MY MAN OF THE SEASON! haha!

Alright! took me like so long to write this. haha! (:
Just wanna Thank God for all he has done, is doing and will do in my life!

#in You i trust

2008-03-20T18:56:00.003+08:00

TODAY WAS COOL!

Went to Singapore's Asian Civilisation Museum!
You just got to go there once and enjoy the air-con. hahah. just kidding
but seriously the stuff in there were Cool, then there was this NADALAN buddism exibition going on, Oh molly, the atmosphere a bit weird cuz of the music which was like the monks reciting the scriptures.

But THANK GOD, i found this nice cosy area where there were seats, dim lightings and just comfortable temperature for sleeping, lol, so i snug around there but my school mates started coming one after another to rest there too hahah, but nvm, so i took out my COOL iPod(t), and decided to not waste time, so i listened to Pastor Phil's sermon, But God.

Awesome Word,
The Word seem to be speaking into the situation i am in,

Mark 16:2-6
3 And they said among themselves, "Who will roll away the Stone from the door of the tomb for us?"
4 But when they looked up. they saw that the stone had been rolled away-for it was very large.

now we look into this 2 very important verses,
Ohh look at what the this group of people said, -"Who will roll away the stone?" Who? they were women, definitely they couldn't push the stone themselves, but first question they had, Who? okay hold on to this and we go to the second verse.

They looked up!!! where were they even looking before then?
They were looking down, feeling so upset about Jesus death, they came to the tomb with emotions to those of the mourning. Definitely Jesus died, but why were they feeling down?
Did not they know, Jesus was the Son of man, he was practically God, Oh myyy.
they were just feeling so down, walking to the tomb with their eyes upon the path they walked, how many of us could say, we rely more on seeing through our very own eyes and seeing what we can see and not what we will be seeing?

now going back to the first verse, i say, GOD IS FAITHFUL!
YES HE IS NOW AND FOREVER!
If your situation matches like how this group of people were, meeting a difficulty and saying, ohhh how is it possible for me to even complete my homework when i only have 24hours a day, i spent 6 hours in school, 8 hours sleeping, 3 hours travelling, and a couple of hours relaxing. oh how will i go to church on Sunday when my Boss calls me back for a urgent meeting on that day? how?
Now i tell you how

look at God
trust Him
and rely on Him

Lets look upon him this day and say, "I don't know what i did wrong or what just happened, BUT GOD i know you will turn things around, for things meant for evil, God makes it good."

Lets all really look upon through God's eyes and you will see more than you had ever, for with God all things are possible.

WOW!!!
God is Good ehh...
and i tell you all my dear friends out there,
you do not need to wait till you get home,
get comfortable in your arm chair, with some water by your side just in case you get thirsty from praying to talk to God.
i sat there in the museum, with people walking across me, people sitting by me, and among all these distractions, BUT GOD came and i received something precious from him.
Isn't it wonderful

Blessed is my God for in Him i am something
Blessed is He who changes the hearts of man
Blessed are those who received His word and works unto their lives
I give him all the praises, for He is worthy
amen!

here we goooooo... (:

#Living Right

2008-03-19T12:09:00.002+08:00

Just 15minutes before i'm gonna leave for School
I guess got to pen some of my thoughts right down

Indeed Crucifying your flesh for Christ who lives in me is hard
the word Crucify just give jitters to a soul
it was never easy to discern the needs of your flesh

I have planned
but have i followed
i have wanted
but did i complete
God praises be upon your name
if so that my spirit is weak
and my flesh is unsubmissive
if You could and only You can
change my heart instantly
and put it on Path
Lazy i am
but on this Path
i will Run
Enduring all
Casting all weights aside
my eyes set upon One
i Run towards my Goal

I still have yet got my confirmation from God of my vision and dream.
Do i really want it?
or Do i really need it?

Got to Pray!!!
Praise the Lord

#break my heart for what breaks yours

2008-03-17T15:51:00.003+08:00

Sitting right now in Khatib MacDonalds, Just ended school, Gonna spend some time Doing my homework in Mac, But after reading Nicholas's Blog, i felt an Urge to blog as well.

Yesterday's Service was Amazing!!!
Pastor Lia Preached a sermon, Journey of a Vision.

I guess it kinda brought out the vision that seem to be hiden behind the pages of my hectic and messy pages about school in my life
My vision, My dream - was of such importance to me, but somehow during the hectic moments, the crazy work load in school.
i totally gave up on praying about it or even giving any thought about it.

My vision and dream is to be a Pastor, Issit a Good one or issit a God-given Vision and Dream of Mine?

Lotsa cntradicting thoughts of mine flooding my head as i sat in the service.
Good or of God?
Could my vision Could be Fulfilled and Come to pass.
Could i can stand throught all the persecutions and troubles that might come my way.
I seem to be talking very messy-ly now as my mind is somehow in a mess.

Yes God is Faithful
So much God spoke to me during the service.
So much i received
But how much could i put into action, How much can i really put into action, into my life and even knowing its God that is speaking to me.
i started asking myself Lots of Questions
Am i Living Right?
Am i Living The way i should be living to Meet my Vision?
Am i Living happily?
Am i Living with Such Conviction about my Future?
Am i Living to the Full-less of What i can be?

reading Nicholas Blog,
Galatians 2:20
20 I have been Crucified with Christ, it is no longer i who lives, but Christ who lives in me, And the life which i now live in the flesh i live by the faith in the Son of God, who Loved me and gave himself to me.

I really Need to live Right!
Living My life so Differently
Living my life that is in the opposition of the desires of my flesh

I want to Live

Oh God, I want to Live
I Want to Live Life
Life that you have Set for me
Life that is Set for such great Purposes

I want to Live
God Help Me!
I want to Live

I'm Struggling to Live
Oh God help me
lest my Weak and Faithless heart get ripped apart by the enemy

I want to Live, My Father!!

I'm jsut crying out my heart to you
Crying out my heart ot you oh God to Help me
To help me oh God

I want to live

Would you set my path so straight!
my eyes upon yours
and throwing all weight off me,
all Sins of me,
oh Jehovah Jireh

I want to Live
This very MOMENT!!!
ThIS VERY SECOND!!!

God i just praise you!
You are Almighty
You are My Lord
Forever and
ever

God i Love you!

#break my heart for what breaks Yours

2008-03-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

Hello!

I'm like starving my Blog, indeed like Nicholas said, to mantain a blog is very hard!
But nvm, i'm feeding it once a month! lol

Alright,
First post of the month,
Shall share some things over here

Totally crazy month of Febuary has passed, here comes Even Crazier month of March!
MY ASSESSMENTS are coming! God save me! haha
Guarding my Heart, with all faith and all diligence!
I SHALL NOT BE LAZY!!!
Gonna pass the assessments powerfully like how i put Kimchi into my mouth!

Okay, today i went for LASER QUEST!
for those who do not know what is Laser Quest!
its a super Fun Game that not only allows you to think like a terrorist in Counter-Strike, but also makes you run squat hide and sweat, Extreme Sweating involved if you fulfil the actions i just mentioned. SO FUNN!!! thats about it (:

I also wish to thank God for all the things He done in my Life, Be it small or big.
He blessed me in ways only he could ever think of

Lifting my Hands to him
my eyes affixed unto him,
the worship of my entire being
and with every Tear i drop,
just for Him

it is written in the Bible, He catches our tears everytime and Keeps it in a Bottle.

Amazing God
The only one and true in my Life
Nothing beats that

I will never trade up His Presence for anything that this World can give.
I love you God, as written

My King of kings, Lord of lords

#break my heart for what breaks Yours

2008-02-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello!

Second post and its been like 2weeks. oh my! haha.
Anyway its been a great week and AHHHHH!! CHINESE NEW YEAR next week!!!
Getting all the Ang Baos or Paos. haha!
Excited about this yr's CNY! hope it would be more fun.

Church Service we watching Pst Cho Yonggi's Sermon, i think its in CCC because i saw Pst Phil in the video!

Faith mann!
Truely, Faith is like the element in which God can work in our hearts and through us.

Specific Visions and Dreams
Something that sets you apart from the rest and will change your life forever.
Somewhat its like seeing your future and knowing it will all come to past.
Seeing comes before Possession.

I got to have more faith mann! haha (:

I pray that faith that is going to rise in my Heart
would be liken to a tree
as it is written a bad tree bears bad fruit and a good tree bears good fruit
let it be faith that i bear in this day
unto the Lord i give my Heart

Praise the Lord,
haha (:

#break my heart for what breaks Yours

2008-01-23T19:57:00.001+08:00

first post of 2008,
spend my day bending wires and cutting Styrofoam boards and metal sheets for my 3d,
Ohh God, tired but guess what
first time i completed all my 3d Hw on time,
took hours, but all is good by the end.

sheep amongst wolves,
lest i fulfil less
of what should be done.

Praise the Lord,
haha (: